I know I keep saying that I’m completely fine with being single. But.
There are still days when I think, I wish I was happy with someone. I’m not that bad-looking. I’m nice, right? I don’t think I’m tough to get along with. But there’s just.. nobody.
A couple of days ago, Candice told me exactly that, that I was pretty but why didn’t I have “boys.” Hahahaha. If I knew, you probably wouldn’t even need to ask, right?
I’ve been told more than once that I have this air of unapproachability about me. Why? I don’t get it. I don’t purposely give off that vibe. Or at least, I’m not aware that I do. So what do I do? Say hello to every single person I walk past? Smile at every stranger who looks at me? Uh, maybe not.
I always thought that whoever the person who was meant for me would at least go the extra mile to meet me, right? But these days, sometimes you’re the one who needs to go the extra mile. Problem is, I don’t know how to do that.
Hahaha. Don’t worry about me. I get like this sometimes and then, I switch back to my happy single vibe. d: I really don’t know why I keep thinking about this, anyway. It’s not like I want a boy friend. Ugh. God knows I want another incredibly messed up part of my life, right? Boys are overrated. “Men” are even worse.
I actually wouldn’t be surprised if I end up an old maid. There’s this running joke in my family that we “only girls” in the family are cursed to be single for the rest of our lives. My grand aunt (my dad’s aunt) was an only girl and she died an old maid. Next in line is my dad’s sister (an only girl, too) is in her early 40s and still isn’t married. I’m the only “only girl” in my generation so good luck to me. Haha! We also get teased that me, my tita and cousin (who also isn’t married) will live together in the future. We’ll just take care of each other. Haha!
I really hope that won’t happen, though. I still want twins. (: Hee.