It seemed like a dream, a beautiful scream

Where did September go? I can’t believe we’re already halfway through the month. It seems like days are bleeding into each other. The only punctuation marks are my first trip to La Union since grade school, the first successful high school reunion (29 attendees, 30 if you count the ones on phone patch), hello and goodbyes at work, and the dreaded move.

If I could have it my way, I’d stay put. I’m stubborn that way. But things keep changing and we need to move forward.

A few weeks ago, I was reminded of a mistake I made a few years back. And I couldn’t believe that I still had so much hate in me. I decided that it’s finally time to let it go. Maybe all this negative energy has been creating a negative force field around me. And it’s been way too long for me to drag all this baggage around. Tama na. I thought I had already freed myself, but whenever I cringe at the thought of… the mistake, I realize maybe I haven’t fully forgotten.

So tonight, in the middle of September, I say goodbye to that awful chapter of my life when I allowed myself to be used and to be treated in a way I never thought possible. I will never ever settle for less than what I truly deserve. And I will pray that I never have to.

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  • Anonymous
    September 16, 2008

    have you read yung book na “the secret”? it says there kasi, if you have negative feelings thoughts or whatsoever, you become attracted to those negative attract negative things. kaya dapat positive lang palagi so that positive din yung darating.well, effective naman siya.ayun…

  • Macy
    September 19, 2008

    Prayer is stronger than The Secret. (: