Please do not scare me like you did last night. I am not equipped with the skills to deal with “Hindi ako makahinga.” I am not strong enough to see my mother panting in her sleep. I am not ready to take care of my mother like this. Please make her better and take her pain away. Please. It’s the only thing I wish for right now. If it takes several nights of sleeping past midnight, because I am rubbing her back so she can breathe, I will do it. But please, make it all better for her. I don’t like seeing her in discomfort. She is my mother. She’s supposed to be invincible.